let it rain;

i can't wait for it to rain.

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Midterms are killer.
I just want to take a nap; which I did. (:
Chem + APUSH tomorrow.
UGHHHHRSDFBMSfdbksdfmblksmdfbgsdFGDSFgjkjdajg!!!

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Everyone lies, right?
But, it's ignorant to lie to someone when they know the truth.
Please don't lie to me, I'm not holding the past against you, but what do you take me for? A fool? I'm not that naive anymore. You don't need to make excuses. It's okay for what you did in the past, but the only thing I have against you is that you don't know how to stop. Didn't you learn from the first time around? I never bring up the subject and yet you're always telling me she's crazy, that she lied, that it never happened. I never held it against you, no hard feelings or anything, but please stop lying to me. I saw the make up on your shirt, I saw the hotel receipts, and even now I hear it from your wife, just like how I heard it from mom. I don't want to say anything even though I should, but I won't. I just hope you'll realize one day what mistakes you're making.

If you're so against me knowing, doesn't that mean even you acknowledge that its wrong?

You have a wife and two kids. If not for me, can't you settle down for them?

keys to my heart;

Today was a shit day.
I couldn't think; I was ridiculously tired.

I hate the thought of being alone or being left.
My I threw my security blanket away and entered this place on my own for the thrill.
Was it worth it?

Just give me something to smile about, something to look forward to, something to be excited about, just something.

Not just a default smile, but that spark in life that get's me moving, that gets me warm, that helps me find myself and who I am. What I am. That something that gives me the strength to truly pull out who I am. I feel like I lost it.

The key's to my own heart, mind, and soul.

But, maybe this is who I am.
Just not who I want to be.

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give me heart;

Big hipped, small eyed, large head, fat thighs, flat nose, wavy hair, tan skin, strange feet, obnoxious, indecisive, meek, contradicting, awkward; flawed.
I thought that I could accept everyone's flaws because it makes them who they are, their flaws made them interesting.
Flaws make people interesting; no doubt about it. But, I'm not so sure if I can accept everyone's flaws if I can't even accept mine yet.
No matter how much I bite my tongue and deny it, those feelings are not nonexistant.
Maybe one day.
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I hate how childish she can be.
Dear Mom,

When will you grow up?