one way ticket;

out my mind.

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"all i want is what you got."

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i constantly set myself up for things i know will happen.

crash into me;

we're all thrown into life whether we're ready or not.

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so i just went through 122 pictures of a boy whom i don't even know.
he died april '09 due to pneumonia.

and as i went through the pictures; he changed a lot over time.
there were so many pictures of him and his family and a picture of him and his little sister.
a brother, a son, a grandson, and a friend.

one day his sister would wonder, where did my brother go?

and i realized, day by day, there are millions of people who go through this.
there are people who throw their lives away by suicide so easily, when there are people who want to live, who cry and hurt and would give anything just to live another day with the ones they love.

and yet the people who have the life to live; throw it away.


feb. 18. 2009.

untitled;

i wish there was something that i could indulge myself in.
a hobby or something, just one thing.

something i could throw myself into and be good at.
spend my time doing only that.

and be the best.